Time if Flying!!

As we have been preparing for our move to Reno, we both knew that the time would come when we'd have to face that we are going to spend some time apart.   Bill moves at the end of this month, just a few months ago it seemed like so far in the future, but here we are.  The machines start to move May 11th, it's a tedious process to move these gigantic machines and will take 2+ weeks to get all 25+ of them moved and re-connected.  It's a huge undertaking.

I stress about everything, it's just my nature.  I overthink, I freak out, I try to control as much as I can---I am struggling with all of this because I do not have control over much of it.  We finally secured his housing for the next 6 months, it will likely become "our" permanent temporary housing once we sell our townhouse.    That was a big relief to me knowing that at least we have decent rentals, fully furnished with utilities and wi-fi included, located in decent neighborhoods for this transition period.   We still don't know when Bill will have to go up to Reno to help facilitate getting the machines up and running, so any plans that we have made for the month of May are "penciled in"-this is not me, this is not the way that I operate. When I make plans, I commit to them and plan for them.  I'm struggling to deal with this but there is also a part of me that knows how to "go with the flow"- I might not like it, but I adapt.  

I try not to think too much about the time Bill & I will spend apart.  We will be celebrating 17 years together and 15 years married next month.   We just do not spend much time apart outside of working hours.  I have had my gal pal trips over the years when I'm gone for 4-5 days max, he's had fewer boys trips over the years, but we seriously miss each other because we love just being together.  We complete each other, we are a good team.   So tonight, when Bill went to bed, he saw his side of the bed "pulled back" like I do many nights- not every night, but I do try to make a point of straightening the bed and pulling his side down and he notices.  He loves it and tonight he tells me how much he's going to miss this when we're apart. 💖💖💖💖😢😢😢😢

I'm going to miss everything about him.  I am sure that I am over-reacting and I will probably be spending much more time in Reno with him than I will here at home.  I am fortunate enough to have a business where I can work from anywhere.  But, I also need to get things ready around the house and prepared for putting on the market.  Of course, I'm going to try to get most of it done this month so that I am free to head up to Reno whenever.  We started this weekend and did a major cleaning of about 2/3 of the garage.  It's amazing how much junk you hang onto!   We had Bill's car filled with stuff for the dumpster and my car filled with donations.  My brother took care of the few items that the donation place would not take. 

I have to say that in January when we put the deposit down on our new home, November seemed SO.FAR.AWAY., but it's already May!   We have a foundation, who knows we might actually have some structure that has been erected in the last two weeks.   We are both excited for this new adventure and excited to start participating in all of the activities that Regency has to offer.   They are adding line dance lessons to the schedule this month, so that is exciting.   👢👢👢💃💃💃  We have already begun to make new friends.  

We're getting to many of the "lasts".  Bill had his hair cut this weekend and came home saying, "that might have been my last hair cut with Linda." 😢  Today, we received notice that our Chiropractor is taking a few long weekends this month, we usually see him on a Friday, so this Friday may be the last time Bill sees him.  Again, we just don't know when he's going to need to be in Reno to set up the machines but as the month keeps on ticking and he's here, that date for him to go is getting closer.  We were having brunch last Friday at our favorite place, Angelica's and that will soon come to an end.  Bill said to me, "I'm really going to miss this place."--they treat us so well, we don't even order drinks and they just show up.  They know that I love the Bivio Pinot Grigio, they know that Bill has a Bloody Maria without the pepper, they have stopped decorating my breakfast plate with "garnish" because I never eat the fruit, they put my entire order on one plate without my asking because they know.   I know this last year has been really hard on everyone and we have tried to support our favorite restaurants as much as possible, I know that they appreciate it.   They know how to make you feel appreciated.   I'm sure  that we will find similar places in Reno, it'll just take some time.  Change is hard!! 

I'm truly a very lucky girl to have met Bill.   I would seriously follow him to the ends of the earth.  The decision to move to Reno was not a hard one and we made it pretty quickly.  His work is moving, he would be totally stressed to change jobs and it would not be the best financial decision/gamble for him to change jobs, I really had no problem embracing the new journey, which really does surprise me sometimes.   I get giddy thinking about our new life in Reno and everything that lies ahead.  Our quality of life is going to improve ten-fold. 

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

Time for a new post - long overdue!

Let's talk about friendship.  I've made a lot of observations over the last year.  In truth, I've probably been making these observations for a long time, but last year I had more free time on my hands and could focus and analyze my observations in greater detail. 

I have friends from all areas of my life.  I have my childhood friends and even though we don't always see eye to eye, we have a very deep rooted bond.  We don't get to see each other as often as we'd like, but we are still very connected with group chats during the week, every week.  We were on a roll of getting together more often before the pandemic and we always have a good time.  These ladies are solid.  We all have our shortcomings but we know them and we love each other regardless. 

I made a few friends in High School, but nothing that withstood the test of time.  I went to H.S. with a fairly good size group of friends from Grammar School which just strengthened those bonds.   I also kept in touch with two friends from Grammar School who moved out of the area and attended other High Schools.  I saw both of them very often and I am still in touch with them.  In fact tomorrow we are attending the baby shower for the daughter of one of these friends.  Hoping to attend her daughter's wedding in a couple weeks if our Reno responsibilities don't conflict.   These are the times you look forward to when you have lifelong friends, seeing them raise a family, watching their children grow up, get married, have babies.  Because of Facebook and my key role in planning our High School reunions, I have become friendlier with a few of my H.S. classmates over the last 15 years, but I have been reminded of why I didn't pursue many of the friendships in H.S.to begin with, teen women can be mean and sometimes they don't grow out of that catty, backstabbing behavior.  I've never been the "clique" type, I've always had the "more the merrier" mentality when it came to my friendships and always took joy in co-mingling my inner circle of friends. I don't seem to get that same respect in return.

I have made several friends in my "adult life"- starting in college to the present.   Some friendships I expected to last a lifetime and sadly that was not meant to be.  I put great value on my friendships, so when something goes wrong, I try to fix it, I try to make it right again even if I was not the one to do the wrong.  Sometimes a heart-felt apology or lack thereof can make or break a friendship.  I know I apologized and extended some grace, but true colors were revealed.  

Other friends, we can go months or years without seeing each other and then pick right back up where we left off.   I know that we all get busy with life and everything else, but I've noticed that some people are way too caught up in their own lives and their own self-importance to pay attention to how they are treating others.  At least, I hope that they are not aware of how they treat others and how unimportant they can make others feel.  There I go again, giving people the benefit of the doubt. 

2020 was rough and I had a lot of time on my hands and I used that time to check in on my friends.   I picked up the phone and called, had long conversations like we used to when we didn't have any cares in the world.   I started weekly Zoom Happy Hours with three different groups of friends to help us all get through the pandemic together.   Over a year later and we're still meeting up over zoom weekly to catch up, in many ways the pandemic has helped to strengthen some friendships that might not have had that chance in the real crazy life! These are my kind of people, I appreciate them more than they know.  I do need to tell them. 

With our upcoming move to Reno this year, I've stopped to reflect even more about friendships.  Who will miss us?  Who will come to visit us?  Who will be eager to make time to see us when we visit the Bay Area?  I guess time will tell.  (I do know that my brother is going to miss us something awful & we are going to miss him too).  But I do know that I am not going to continue to water dead plants.  When people lie and keep secrets from you, those are not true friends.  Time to stop being so damn nice.  I'm also done with narcissists and gaslighters.  Also, my reunion planning days are over.  It's a lot of work and though I know it is appreciated,  I really don't get to enjoy the party because I'm too busy with everything and when I do have time to enjoy, I'm with my core friend group anyway.  I don't need a H.S. reunion to see them.  Time to pass the torch! 

I am looking forward to the new friendships that will be made in Reno, in fact we have already begun to meet people and have been super impressed with how friendly everyone has been.  When you think about it, most people are transplanting to Reno from some other place, some do have family or other friends in the area but most are starting fresh.  I am really looking forward to this new chapter in our lives.  I think it's going to be fun and a great new adventure. 

At the end of the day, Bill truly is my best friend and I am so blessed to have him and thankful that we share so much in common.   Looking forward to life getting back to normal, finding our new dance hangouts--which I already think we've determined to be Pure Country Canteen and GSR, we will make new dance friends.   There is so much going on at our Clubhouse, we will have the opportunity to meet plenty of new people.  Looking forward to getting back to traveling again, too!   2021 is the year of change, 2022 is the year that things start to feel more like 2019! 

 

Patience - Week 4

 

Another good week.  I was within my calories every day last week.  I met my step goal of 35K, which was about 5k better than the week before.  I have been making small weekly goals so that I can feel successful.  I tend to be an all or nothing person.   I tend to be a now person.  Patience is not my strong suit.  I'm trying to remind myself that I did not gain all of this week overnight, so losing it is also not going to happen overnight.  

I did weigh myself after my cleanse day last week and I have hit the 5 pound loss mark, it's slow and I am a wee bit frustrated with how slow, I am also trying to accept it and know that losing is better than staying the same or gaining.  

We did go out to lunch on Friday & even with a skinny Margarita and two glasses of wine with dinner, I still managed to be within my allowed calories.  We also went out to dinner for Valentine's Day which is technically the start of this week and I was about equal on calories in and calories out.   I have to say that wine consumption is WAY down.  I split a bottle of white Friday & Saturday nights and then Bill & I shared a bottle for our Valentine's Day dinner.   I'm not missing it, to be honest.  I'm pretty satisfied with my 2 glasses on those few nights that I'm allowing myself to have it.   My brother is still baking cookies, which are hard to resist & I still have my mini-drumstick for dessert at night.  They are only 70 calories!! 

I have been doing Cammie's daily fitness challenge.   I have let myself get behind a few days, but I have caught up and made sure to do each and every day.  It does hurt a wee bit more when you procrastinate and end up having to do 3-4 days at one time!  But I am doing it.    My step goal this week is 40k, which should be an easy goal to achieve because we are back in business with our Parking Lot Dance Parties this weekend.  If all goes well, I should end up with 20k steps on Saturday alone!  However, I am still trying to get a little more each day this week vs the same day last week.

I did buy a few warmer clothes items from Kohl's since our outdoor dining is open again & I wanted a few choices for our Friday lunches or our dinners that we are planning on doing each week.  There was a very cute "oversized" sweater.  It only came in S/M or L/XL.  I didn't even hesitate and purchased the L/XL, well it was on the really oversized side.  I decided to order a few more sweaters but ordered the S/M and they fit!   I have now ordered all 5 colors that the sweater comes in and have 2 to return that were the larger size, so that felt good! 

The other patience testing part of my life now is our move to Reno.   I am so ready for things to happen and they are out of my control.  We have to wait for the permits so that they can break ground.  They aren't supposed to break ground until March and I realize March is less than two weeks away, but I want to know NOW.   We have our Design appointments set for April and I know that will be stressful but exciting at the same time.  I have been obsessing just about every evening on various websites building wish lists for things that we will need after we move.  Closet Organization System, a few pieces of furniture, blinds/window coverings, outdoor ideas.  It's all very overwhelming.  

It's also very stressful not knowing our timeline.  We don't know exactly when Bill's work will move, because of that we don't know when we will for sure put this place on the market.  We have a closing date of 11/26/21 (a really good date-my birthday), of course we want it to be earlier but if that's the date, it's a cool date.  Not knowing how long we will be overlapping with paying a mortgage here and renting something in Reno or do we sell as early as we can and just rent something for 3-4 months and "suck up" the double address change?   If it was just our personal stuff it would be an easier decision, but I'm moving a business also and moving a business twice does not sound fun at all.   

I have always said that the ideal scenario would be to move once.  This would mean putting our house on the market after Bill's work moves, figure that's August, by the time it sells and closes we're at the end of September, hopefully rent back from the buyers for two months and be moved into our new place by the end of November.  However, we'd still be looking at 3-4 months of Bill needing to pay rent someplace in Reno and even an AirBnB is going to end up running about $3k/month.  I know we've talked about hotels, like Residence Inn or similar because he would be coming down the Bay Area for some of the time too to help pack up/get move ready in that situation too.  

I know it will all work out, I do have tremendous faith- it's just the lack of control and the lack of patience that I need to work on.   For now, I am going to focus on my weight loss efforts.....tomorrow is Cleanse-day Wednesday.   I have not done a two day cleanse yet, in large part- it's hard to stay focused with it when everyone else in the house is eating at dinner time.   I tried last week, but I had such a headache not because I was cleansing but I know that I was not drinking enough water.  I will find the right week to do it, again in the right time. 

Progress = Results, Week 3 Accountability

 

Three full weeks since I said "enough already" and decided to get serious about my fitness and nutrition.  I need to remind myself that forward progress is good regardless of how little it may be, in the end it will be baby steps of progress that will result with the big goal in the end.  My end goal is not small.  I know I need to lose at least 70 pounds, but ideally want to lose 90 pounds.  And of course, I want it yesterday!  Patience is not my strong suit and it appears that 2021 is going to test my patience with every chance she gets. 

I had a good week.  Ok, I think I had a pretty damn good week.   My fitbit is set up for a 250 calorie deficit which should equate to about a 1 pound weight loss per week.  Of course, I'd much prefer to have the 500 calorie deficit which would be a more desirable 2 pounds per week.  I'm not there yet, but I will get there.  I am proud to say that every day this past week, my calorie grid was green (in the zone) or blue (under the zone).  Under doesn't bother me because it was a day that my deficit was between 250-500 calories, so it just means to me that I am getting closer to being able to set that 500 calorie deficit as the goal. 

What amazes me is that I did this with 3 social outings.  Monday I had breakfast with a girlfriend at Stack's.  I had eggs and bacon, no toast and no potatoes.   Wednesday, I had lunch on the patio with two girlfriends and stuck with my cleanse day.   "Lunch" was about getting together, not so much about eating, so it was just fine that I was drinking my cleanse drink.  I couldn't do that at a restaurant.   Friday night we went out to dinner with another couple.  I had a cocktail and two glasses of wine, I splurged with chocolate mousse for dessert, but I was on point all day, burned more calories than normal, so it didn't matter that my dinner was 1100 calories, it balanced out with the 700 calories I had earlier in the day.  What I did not do was have more wine when we got home.  We still had a few hours together watching TV until Bill went to bed, he had more wine & I chose not to.   Saturday night I had a zoom Happy Hour with two gal pals, I had a glass of wine with them and then another with dinner but saved the remainder of the bottle for Sunday night.   This is all HUGE progress for me.   

I did get on the scale mid-week (which I said I would not do) but I was curious to see what my weight was after the cleanse day.   Of course, it still confirmed that I'm on track for 1 pound per week and I have lost 3 pounds so far, but I am hoping tomorrow will show more on my true weigh in day and I will not weigh in again until the following Monday. 

Activity is getting better.   Each day I had better step counts, I got up more, moved around the house more.  Those 3 social outings got me moving more as well.  This staying at home stuff for the past year has truly killed my fitness because I was always going somewhere!  I danced off and on Saturday in between getting some natural vitamin D on the patio and ended the week with a total of 31K steps which is an improvement from the previous week and that is ultimately my goal- to do better than the week before.  Today (Sunday) was the start of the next fitbit week and my steps are low thanks to the Puppy Bowl, the Kitten Bowl and then the Super Bowl but I will make up for it during the week. 

My friend Cammie has been posting various workout challenges each month.  Everyday is a small task just to do something.  I started on Feb 1st and then dropped the ball.  On Saturday, I decided to make up and did the workouts for Feb 2nd-6th.  This meant 45 squats, 65 minute plank, 19 chair dips, 32 crunches, 26 leg lifts and 13 push-ups.  That was a lot of fun 😂 and I felt it today!! However, I still managed to do today's challenge which was another 25 squats, 7 push-ups and 16 leg lifts.  💪👊

I did not get to my Body Pump workouts this past week as I had hoped, but will make sure to get 1-2 in this week.  I'm really craving a good Body Combat workout and my body NEEDS a good Body Flow workout.  I really am out of shape, lack major flexibility - it's embarrassing. 

I could have done better on sleep this past week, I had two days that were under 7 hours because I had 9am work zoom meetings for 3 days and my late nights are hard to break.  My average sleep for the week was right at 7 hours.  I like to average 7.5 if possible.  I will aim to do better with that this week. 

This coming week is pretty light with meetings, so I really should not have any excuses!!  Going to make it a great week! 

Dance is Good for the Soul

 

As I've stated in previous posts, finding the motivation to "move" over the last 10 months has really been difficult.  I had a few really good stretches of getting my 10k steps per day and most of the time, I got those steps by Line Dancing in my living room.   Dancing is my gig.  No doubt that dancing gives me peace, joy, exercise and it makes me happy.   Lately, the last few months though I've had a hard time motivating myself to dance.   I miss my dance family.   Line Dancing is not quite the same by yourself.  But knowing all of this and knowing that this year I need to make some positive changes to lose weight and get back into "fighting shape", I decided to make myself dance.   It didn't take long for me to feel that joy, to feel that peace once again.   I danced a good 7k steps yesterday and a good 4k steps today.  I'm not focusing so much on the 10k per day - YET.   Right now I just need to do better than what I've done, so if I can achieve a weekly goal or a daily goal to be better than the week before or the month before, then I have been successful.    This past week I had just over 28K steps...I have not had that many since October 31st and the only reason I had 44K steps the week ending 10/31/20 is because we had a dance party on Halloween and I logged 20K steps that day! 

I have been pretty "OK" with the nutrition this week.  I still have some work to do to really be on track in this part of the equation.   It doesn't help when my brother bakes chocolate chip cookies.   Today the house smelled of freshly baked cookies and crockpot lasagne. But it's all about balance.  

I'm not sure what the scale will say tomorrow.  I was able to successfully cleanse one day this past week and am hoping to cleanse two days this week.   Our outdoor dining is no longer restricted, which is great.  These restaurants need to be open so that they can try to survive through this pandemic.  Bill & I resumed our Friday brunch at Angelicas and it felt so nice to be outside dining again!   I have 3 "dates" this week with friends for safe outdoor gatherings, so I am trying to be very aware of my calories so that this does not backfire on me.   One of the gatherings is lunch on my patio and that will be a cleanse day, I can easily drink my bone broth during lunch, so much easier than being at a restaurant.   And I know that my friends will understand why I'm not eating "food" with them! 

My goals for the upcoming week:   maintain my calorie intake and try to keep the caloric deficit.   Continue to dance.   Break out the weights and start doing BodyPump in the living room.  I want to start doing this 3 times a week.   Alcohol is out of the picture until Thursday or Friday. 

Hello February! 

GOALS: Week One Accountability

Week one:

As I said in my last entry, it's time for me to get back in shape.  On Monday, I weighed in and took my measurements.  I compared those to previous measurements and let's just say,  WOW!  It was pretty eye-opening.    Not that looking at myself in an unexpected mirror was not eye-opening enough the previous week, but still just WOW. 

I am pretty proud of my week overall.  I have been logging my food intake and have stayed under my burned calories for most of the days.   My activity has been low, so I have resisted the urge to splurge.   If I don't have the calories to spend, it's not going to happen.    One day was even, one day was over but the rest of the week I was under the calories burned.  I am hoping for a positive sign on the scale tomorrow morning.   I have been successful with my 2 shakes per day with the exception for the weekend, I didn't have any on Saturday but had one on Sunday.  I know I need to work on this, it's hard when my brother cooks breakfast on Saturdays.  I don't want to say "no" because it is thoughtful, but it's so filling that I really don't eat anything else until dinner.  I know that's not good for weight loss. 

Today I had the most activity.  Today is "day one" according to Fitbit and I have more than 1/2 the number of steps today than I did all of last week!   So that should give me a good jump start to make it a good week.  How did I get so many steps on a Sunday?  I took down Christmas.  I kept saying I was going to leave it up until our lockdown is lifted, but it sounds as though that could be coming sooner than I thought and we will be able to once again go out to restaurants!   However, even though I was active today, I am in pain and have been in pain most of the time that I was active.  I'm also sad and pissed off that I'm in pain.  The reason that I'm in pain is because I'm so fucking out of shape and so fat!  It's this vicious cycle.  But ultimately, I am so pissed that I allowed myself to get to this point.  I realize that though I take full responsibility, this last year has been a shit show and so hard to be active and stay accountable.   But I can't let that dictate my life , I am determined to snap out of it, now is the time.   I had to take two advil and have been icing my back once all was done and put away.   

Tomorrow will be a better day, though now I'm tempted to do a little dancing to get my 10k steps- I'm only about 8-9 dances away! I think I can do that, I think I should to this! 

2021- Goals & Adventures

 New Year, New Beginning and to be cliche- New Me!   I'm overdue!   

2020 was not kind to me.   My Travel Business came to a stand-still, I lost more earned money than ever before.  I do not have any hope of making money until late 2021 and even that is shaky at this point.  Seems every day we get another blow.  This past week was a new CDC requirement for travelers to test negative before flying back to the USA.  Enough already! 

My fitness career also came to a stand-still.  Gyms had to close with the pandemic and even though my home club, the JCC has re-opened with outdoor classes, there are very few and they are not Les Mills.  During the course of the year, the JCC "broke up" with their management company, so we are all supposed to be employees of the JCC now, I completed everything but never heard a thing.  I don't even receive instructor emails anymore.  I spoke to another instructor who I know does not want to get back to teaching until the pandemic is gone or at least controlled with vaccines & she was told that she's on the sub list.   I kept procrastinating getting in touch with my Director about this but of course began all of the negative self-talk.  "They don't want me", "I'm not good enough to teach there", "I'm too fat", "I'm not fit enough"--the list goes on.   At this point, I'm going to let it ride.   I don't know when/if they will bring back the classes that I teach and I'm not sure that I'm ready to go back to teaching with masks, etc.  At this point in time, I am fat and I am not fit.   2020 was not kind.

All of this being said, we have a new beginning this year and that will be a move to Reno, NV.   Bill's work is relocating and we decided to take on the new adventure.  Of course, I am also a realist and given that he's worked there for 32 years and is currently our sole supporter financially, it makes sense.  We are both excited about this & have put a deposit down on a new build in an Active 55+ Adult community.   It's really time to get back on track.  Honestly, the physical aspect of moving might kill me (not quite literally) but I am so out of shape and not very strong anymore, it's pathetic.  I weigh the heaviest that I have ever weighed.  EVER.  I don't eat right, I drink too much wine and I am not exercising.  

Eating: probably the least part of the problem.  I am aware of what I am eating, I just don't think I'm being consistent or on a good schedule.  I wake up and usually have my coffee first and then I'm not really hungry for hours, then I get my Isagenix shake, maybe a decent snack later in the day and then it's too close to dinnertime.  We normally cook something decent for dinner and I eat small portions. But I do act out.  I will have chips, cookies, ice cream, etc.  Not all of the time, but if I splurge I'm all in. 

Wine: well the drinking starts in the evening and I often will drink a bottle over the course of 4-5 hours. Honestly, it's not a terrible amount but I should not be doing this every night.  I get bored or I get depressed and then I don't care and it becomes this vicious circle.  I have tried and been successful to limit the drinking to 2-3 days a week and that's what I need to get back to.  OR restrict myself to 2 glasses per night.  I know what I need to do, I know that I can do it and I think I am finally at the point where I want to do it. 

Exercise: with all the free time that I have, you'd think I would be going for 4-5 mile walks every day (like I used to when I was busy), you'd think that I would do BodyPump, Combat or Flow in the living room to one of my training videos but I lack serious motivation.  As for the walking, I think I need to delete the Citizen App from my phone.  I get alerts of all sorts of crazy crimes going on in the neighborhood, I don't know if it's because of the pandemic and people are desperate but I'm just not comfy going walking by myself like I once was.   I did have a good spree of dancing in the living room but then I got burned out with that and it's just not the same as dancing with my friends.  I have probably worked out (including dancing) maybe 30 days in the last 10 months.  Maybe.  I know it'll be hard to get going again but I also know once I get going, I will feel energized and will get back into the routine.

Sleep & TV & Social Media:  though I track my sleep and most nights I am getting enough sleep: 7-8 hours per night, I stay up way too late.  I am a night owl, this I know.  I have always been a night owl, but I need to start going to bed earlier so that I can get up earlier and drink my shake, attack my workout and then have my coffee.  I need to develop the good routine that I once had.  I waste hours late at night watching the game show network & scrolling around on Social Media.  Good Lord.  Obviously, this is all new since the pandemic because I don't have anything to get up early for--but I really do, I need to get up earlier for me.  It would be one thing if I was staying up late to work on trip quotes or catching up on paperwork! 

I know when I exercise, I make better choices with food and alcohol.   I want to lose at least 50 pounds before we move, it would be even better to lose 70 pounds by then.  I think that would put me at a very comfortable weight.  It's still not my Wedding Day weight, but it would still be a healthy weight and good size for me.   Though I had body image issues when I was teaching classes.  Over the last few years, I experienced weight gain due to Menopause (twice), I think I'm over that hurdle by now but now the weight gain is covid weight gain and lack of lifting weights means that I've lost muscle mass, so I am fat and flabby.  I usually like to say fluffy but I'm beyond fluffy.  I was sitting on the guest room bed the other day while the house cleaners were cleaning my office.  I was in direct view of the full mirrored closet doors- OH EMMMM GEEEEE!   Not pretty, it was disgusting if I'm being really honest with myself. 

I am coming up on the renewal of my ACE Primary fitness certification and my CPR (which is required to renew the CPR), I've considered letting it lapse and hang up my teaching hat, but doing that means that I am doing it because Covid happened, not because I decided to stop teaching.  Today I looked up online to see where there might be Les Mills classes close to where we will be living in Reno.  I discovered that there is an Athletic Club about 10 minutes away that offers just about every Les Mills format.  I decided to be brave and posted in the LM Instructor group on Facebook to see if anyone taught at this club or knew anything about this club.  Well, the Group Exercise Director messaged me & another well-respected industry friend of 20 years chimed in on the post.  I feel good about this and  having hope to teach again will help to get me back on track, will keep me focused.  I know that teaching kept me accountable with my own healthy choices and it also did wonders to my mental health.  There is no way that I will audition to teach at a new club in the current state of my body! 

I just want to feel good and healthy again.  Once we do get to Reno, I want to feel in shape, I want to go line dancing and fit into my cute jeans and cute tops.  I have not been to a Ross store in over a year. I've had no need!    I want to get back into my cute bikinis since we will have a Community pool, it's an Active Community- I want to be Active.  I also want to feel as though I can go hiking and exploring around Nevada.  As we make new friends and start doing things with others, I don't want to be that person that holds everyone up because she can't keep up.  I have always been the one that people couldn't keep up with!! 

The time is now.  I need to do this for myself.  I want to enjoy our new adventure.  I want to get back to having a purpose and right now my purpose is to get back in shape to make the move as easy as possible and to get back to teaching.  I think I will have plenty of free time for the next 1-2 years until my business fully recovers or comes close to recovered.  I can't continue to eat cookies, ice cream, chips, popcorn and drink wine and expect to be healthy!  Behaviors need to be reframed. The time is NOW. 

CORN DIP RECIPE

 

CORN DIP RECIPE

Many of you have had the yummy Corn Dip and wanted the recipe- so here goes

I typically make a double batch--but here is the single batch measurements:
 
1 cup mayonnaise
2 cups shredded cheese (I usually mix Jack and Cheddar)
3/4 cup parmessan cheese grated
1 small can green chiles
1 can (15 oz) corn
1 small can of jalapenos-diced

Mix it all up, put into 8 X 8 baking dish (spray first with my namesake), 

then bake at 375 degrees for 40 minutes.
 
FYI- a double batch will still fit in the 8X8 dish, even though 

you won't think that it would!
 
Serve with Tostitos Scoops!
 
Another tip- I wanted to make this for a girls weekend in Tahoe, 

but didn't want to take up all the ingredients- 

so I mixed it the night before and put it in a ziploc bag- 

when we got up to Tahoe, I transferred it into the pan and baked.
 
Another tip--the Double Batch is SUPER EASY because the 

ingredients come in proper amounts-

get a 2 cup bag of shredded jack, a 2 cup bag of shredded cheddar,  

one tub of grated parmesan cheese, 2 cans corn, 2 cans chiles, 2 cans jalapenos-

-the only mess is the mayo that you need to measure out into 2 cups

...then mix it all up! 

2020- Reflections on an "unprecedented year"

 

2020 - you were a challenge, but you weren't all bad!! 

January:  started out with sickness, I was sicker than I've ever been starting 1/4/20 and it lasted at least 3 weeks.  I will forever wonder if I didn't have covid.  I had all the Classic symptoms:  dry stubborn cough that would not go away,  fever that would look like it was breaking only to come back again and some breath shortness when moving around.  Of course, we didn't know what covid was in January!   That being said, I pushed myself to attend both 49er playoff games at Levi's and they earned their ticket to the Super Bowl.

February:  Super Bowl!! Though the Niners didn't win, we still enjoyed the thrill of cheering them on during the game!   We enjoyed time with friends & celebrated Valentine's Day at a great party.

March:  I got to meet a fellow TA friend from Nebraska as she was visiting the SF Bay Area.  We had a lovely dinner down at Fisherman's Wharf & we stayed overnight in the city (little did we know)...and we also went out to dinner to celebrate our good friend Linda's birthday- again having no idea that would be our last time to eat out at a restaurant- inside!    I taught my last Body Pump class on March 11th & danced my last night of dancing at the Saddle Rack that same night.  The Saddle Rack closed the next night, taking a prevention stance before official lockdown (which is to be respected) & March 17th the state of CA was on lockdown orders, only allowed out for "essentials". 

April:  I surprised my sister with a special Zoom for her birthday, she thought it was just going to be the immediate family, but I arranged to have our cousins in CT & some of her best friends to join in.  She cried.  It was a success.   We also changed with the times and celebrated Easter over zoom!  Being empathetic to friends who live alone, we also surprised another friend on her birthday with a plant and card that we delivered to her doorstep.

May:  A bittersweet month.  The Saddle Rack announced that they would not reopen when the pandemic was over or under control or whenever they would be given the green light to re-open.   Our dance family was shattered & heartbroken.  However, we did get together on Memorial Day weekend for a parking lot party with all the necessary precautions and it felt so good to dance with friends again - even though we found out later that we were not allowed to do this- yet.   More zoom social hours, sunshine arrives and I spent numerous afternoons taking in "Vitamin D"

June:  No real graduation ceremony for Nolan (8th grade) or Brynn (HS), but we watched ceremonies on the internet.  I also watched the very last graduating class on FB live graduate from Mercy.   I had a picnic lunch with my sister on her patio. Bill & I celebrated our 14th wedding Anniversary and we were super thankful that restrictions began to be lifted, so we stayed overnight at the Ritz Carlton Half Moon Bay, ate at their outdoor restaurant twice, enjoyed an afternoon at Filoli Gardens and then had a nice dinner outside in downtown Redwood city.  We felt human again!   We got to go out to dinner two weeks later for Bill's birthday!  We finally got to see our Godkids and their parents with a lovely outdoor gathering in their backyard.  However, June did not come and go without sadness, my fitness family lost a truly beautiful & sunny soul when Wendy passed away after several cancer battles. 

July:  A fairly quiet month.  Many days on the patio enjoying the sunshine.  We were finally cleared to have another Parking Lot Dance Party.  Brynn had a graduation party that we sadly had to decline, with covid guidelines we just did not feel as though going was the right thing for us to do. 

August:  We enjoyed more days on the patio both by day and night.  Card games, dice games, Mexican Train - all to keep us busy and entertained.   We had a few more parking lot dance parties, which were always a highlight.  Zoom happy hours on a weekly basis, which were truly a Godsend to stay connected with great friends...and then a Thunderstorm induced fire storm throughout much of the greater Bay Area.  There were 3 huge complex fires that burned for months.  Thankfully, everyone we know remained safe and free from any property loss.  Bill & I also started having outdoor dining lunch on Fridays to help support our favorite restaurants.

September:  Got to enjoy a lunch out with Diane and Mama Yelinek to celebrate Diane's birthday.  More Zooms.  More parking lot dance parties & 49er football season began!  I also had a sister lunch in Walnut Creek on her patio! 

October:  We went on vacation!!  Took a trip to Cabo for 10 days and had the time of our lives!   Our dance family even went "live" from their parking lot party to include us from Mexico!!  Went out to dinner with the Barron family to celebrate Shelby's birthday!  We enjoyed a wonderful parking lot party for Halloween with live music provided by the Rob Tracy Band & I finally got to see my very good friend Tiina!  More football, more baseball (LA won the world series- boo!  But it is 2020!!!) 

November:  An election to remember.  The earliest that I've ever decorated the house for Christmas, my combined Thanksgiving/Birthday celebration and my first Thanksgiving to cook!  We decided to be "covid safe" and did not gather outside of our house for Thanksgiving.  I did receive a wonderful surprise visit from the Barron girls who delivered the Happy Birthday song and flowers.  Made me feel super special!  And of course, more zooms!   Lockdowns started to be implemented again and Santa Clara County was one of the first so our November parking lot party ended up being canceled. 

December:  Usually our busiest month because we have a gazillion social gatherings.  Not this year.  We missed seeing our friends & we missed hosting our annual party that has become a big hit with all of our friends.  It was heartwarming to see people post memories of our parties showing that they miss it too!   However, we had time to do things that we never had time to do before:   we visited Filoli with the holiday lights at night & we did Christmas in the Park in San Jose which became a drive through event this year.  Both were fantastic!  Of course, more zooms with friends and colleagues, many nights of playing cards or dice with Bill and other friends over zoom, binge watching various shows and movies.  Christmas Day was just our household & it was nice.  We did manage to have a drive by Christmas Day Mimosa toast with the Barron family (modifying tradition slightly).  We also did a quick getaway to Reno to contemplate our future.   It was a really great mini-getaway. 

Overall, 2020 may not have been the year we expected to have, but it wasn't all that bad.  We have connected even more deeply with certain friends,  we have strengthened what was already a strong marriage (we really do love being together), we are thankful for our health & for the health of our family & friends.  I completed all of my photo books & have enjoyed reliving the memories.  I did a puzzle & confirmed that I really am not a puzzle person. We are grateful for the roof over our heads, food on our table & for Bill's steady income/employment! 

Excited for 2021.  I know that this year won't magically be "back to normal"  & we probably won't be back to normal anytime soon, but there is hope with a new year that things will change, things will get better.  I have already received inquiries for travel for late 2021 and into 2022, I won't see any income from trips traveled until late this year and early next year, but we're prepared to continue to weather this financial storm. I did not invest 30 years into this career to walk away from it, my business will flourish once again.   We are also looking at some other changes that will be happening this year, more news to come.  😁

Happy New Year everyone!